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chess is mental torture.17.11.09mind numbing ecstasyit Wasn’t more like a blindfold roughly secured through the vision to a soul draped across those emerald eyes sometimes shimmering sometimes matte, always Hidden. it wasn’t a flavour, numb it had no connotations no indications, a particular colour or scEnt it wasn’t black, it wasn’t white it certainly wasn’t gRey it was devoid of hue yet not transparent it was visible only by imagination yet not perceptible to the eye. it is what, we believe, hidden depths of our minds, humans strive for after happinEss a numbness not of mind or soul of spirit or maybe, yes, all three a concealing that erases negativity all those feelings cooped inside of me. cup your Hands together let the water fall through the gaps you’ve created it feels good, relaxing you cease to hold the liquid in the puddle you created A home for it freefallS while touching your skin ember amber tender it doesn’t really Matter, anYmore. all that’s there is that Sensation you let the water run you feel your pulse respond, and you let the wAter run maybe next time, when you iNevitably repeat this, you will find yourself trailing back to these thoughts. always after, when you finish and you look In the mirror see the water diminish you’ll Think to yourself, “what a waste.” you’ll hate that you weren’t there fullY but then somethinG else will cOme more of that miNd numbing Ecstasy. so. basketballed today. my ball died. it got stabbed. I WANT A NEW BALL. a hot pink or bright purple one preferably. yay. basketballing again later. but i don't feel like it. i'll take over someone's skateboard perhaps. -grins- |
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